if i dont see you

crazy shit

Thu, 25 May 2006 00:11:08 GMT

one more day of exams! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE BEEN A JUNIOR FOR A YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DAMMIT...well it made up for me being a sophomore for less...but

I need to get some rest.

BUT NOOOOOOOO!

I'm taking summer school and finishing chemistry. plus i'm taking online classes for Health instead of taking it full time in school next year.PLUS i'm still waiting for my SAT results.

I want to just fall down and die right now.

BUT

I'm so full of energy that I can't understand...

its so shittable.

ahahaha.

I don't think listening to techno music helps to lower my raging hormones either.

I want to go to a STRIP CLUB and see some hot shit!hot shit hotshit!!!!!

ok. weirdfulness....

as soon as i get to illinois. i'm gonna fucking drink my ass off

or something like that.

i'm going crazy now.

you're welcome

summer

Thu, 18 May 2006 15:04:10 GMT

countdown

Wed, 17 May 2006 00:18:58 GMT

10 days.

summer...

Sun, 14 May 2006 19:46:14 GMT

2 more weeks...

vf junkie.

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 01:43:31 GMT

finally spring break!!!!!!!!!

ahh. welcomed respite from school. i just realized that i'm literally going to school for a year...A WHOLE FUCKING YEAR!...the whole 12 months instead of just 10...wow...i must be really bored with school now...which i am. just a few more weeks before summer break. i can do this. anyway i've been just bumming around the whole week.

MONDAY-slept till 9...wow. woke up. ate breakfast. ate lunch. slept again. watched tyra and ellen. took a bath. ate din-oh wait i didnt eat dinner. chatted with chi 'til like i dunno. rediscovered vf and got hooked.

TUESDAY-slept till 9 again. woke up. ate breakfast. listened to dandy warhols and three days grace again and again. didnt eat lunch. watched oprah's special report on american schools in crisis(DROPOUT NATION). didnt eat dinner. went online on vf and rated like a whore. read time's issue called DROPOUT NATION. slept.

WEDNESDAY-slept till like...5. ate breakfast. took a bath. went with my mom to the school she teaches in to get some service hours. stayed there for a loong time helping with the 1st graders. 1st graders are the shit man. ate lunch. looked after some kids ranging from 8th grade til pre-k. went to broward mall. went home. ate dinner. slept.

THURSDAY-slept til 9. ate breakfast. read a harry/draco fic. ate lunch. went online (vf again). didnt eat dinner. still online...

yea i still AM online...i didnt know vf would be this addicting.wow.anyway i havent taken a bath yet and i still need to do the dishes.damn.ohh...yea. my mom bought me new chucks. they're blue hi-tops...haha yea! i really needed new shoes coz i fuckin need to walk home almost everyday. i'm actually getting a FUCKING TAN!!!!!!!!!!!argh. i hate florida. i want to go to illinois and STAY THERE...urgh. and i still need to fix up for my SATs...grrr...

life sucks now more than ever. but hey i still look good.LOL

Fri, 07 Apr 2006 23:45:25 GMT

Opening credits:"Come as you are" - Nirvana

Waking up:"Don't look back" - Telepopmusik

Average day: "Carcrashes" - Standfast

First date: "Girl's not grey" - AFI

Falling in love:"Why can't I" - Liz Phair

Love scene: "Kiss me" - Sixpence none the richer (hehe)

Fight scene: "The Hand that Feeds" - Nine Inch Nails

Breaking up: "You were the Last High" - The Dandy Warhols

Getting back together: "Heaven beside you" - Alice in chains (I don't believe in getting back with an ex...hehehe)

Life's okay: "Sex and candy" - Marcy Playground

Mental breakdown: "Over my head" - The Fray

Driving: "My Favourite Game" - The Cardigans

Learning a lesson: "Suddenly I see" - KT Tunstall

Deep thought: "Loser" - Beck

Flashback: "Here's to the Night" - Eve 6

Partying: "Get Fucked" - Bad Cabbage

Happy dance: "Maureen" - Fountains of Wayne

Regretting: "Bad Day" - Daniel Powter

Long night alone: "Is Anybody Home?" - Our Lady Peace

Death scene: "Angel" - Sarah Mclachlan

Closing credits: "The Leaving Song" - AFI

yea.

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 21:57:58 GMT

hehehe. tagged by my wonderful father _irishspring_...so here it is.

7 ANGRY THINGS:

1. I HATE MY SCHOOL WITH A PASSION.
2. aside from that I'm getting small pimples on my neck...IT LOOKS LIKE A FUCKING HICKEY!!!
3. sad thing is...no one made that hickey...get it?!! bwahahahaha...nevermind.
4. I'm quoting my bro chi here..."I HAVE NOT BEEN LAID YET"...but soon...wehihihihihi
5. ...I got really angry when my mom said that its gonna be hard for me to leave when I go to college...WELL WHAT DO THEY KNOW?!!!I'm actually willing to do everything it takes so I CAN LEAVE!!! YA HEAR!!!LEAVE!!!grr.
6. people are fucking RUDE.
7. I NEED A RELEASE.

7 HAPPY THINGS:

1. well...good thing is that SPRING BREAK is coming up in a week and we might(big might right there)go to orlando and go to DISNEYLAND!!! weee.
2. 2 MORE MONTHS BEFORE SUMMER!(I'm soo ready for summer)
3. we're going back to Illinois for summer break...i'll be there the whole time...and you know who's there *wink wink* LOL
4. I live right next to a mall...and I have easy access to hot topic.
5. ...hmm...ONE MORE YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL!
6. I'm turning 18 and I'll finally be legal!!! in the Philippines...
7. I'm still alive.

hoyea. I got tagged twice with this one. I was tagged by my bro using my other lj so I have another one to make...whehehehehe

I'm tagging...sorry I don't know how to link this.

_dismalshadow
fire_starter90
battousai_24
little_fro
dreamfreak
batangsupergirl

hey.

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 23:57:48 GMT

I have a classmate who looks like the male version of Bel. it's so funny.

friday, march 11 2006

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 22:24:31 GMT

the Perfectionist
Test finished!

you chose CZ - your Enneagram type is ONE.

"I do everything the right way"

Perfectionists are realistic, conscientious, and principled. They strive to live up to their high ideals.

How to Get Along with Me

Take your share of the responsibility so I don't end up with all the work.
Acknowledge my achievements.
I'm hard on myself. Reassure me that I'm fine the way I am.
Tell me that you value my advice.
Be fair and considerate, as I am.
Apologize if you have been unthoughtful. It will help me to forgive.
Gently encourage me to lighten up and to laugh at myself when I get uptight, but hear my worries first.

What I Like About Being a One

being self-disciplined and able to accomplish a great deal
working hard to make the world a better place
having high standards and ethics; not compromising myself
being reasonable, responsible, and dedicated in everything I do
being able to put facts together, coming to good understandings, and figuring out wise solutions
being the best I can be and bringing out the best in other people

What's Hard About Being a One

being disappointed with myself or others when my expectations are not met
feeling burdened by too much responsibility
thinking that what I do is never good enough
not being appreciated for what I do for people
being upset because others aren't trying as hard as I am
obsessing about what I did or what I should do
being tense, anxious, and taking things too seriously

Ones as Children Often

criticize themselves in anticipation of criticism from others
refrain from doing things that they think might not come out perfect
focus on living up to the expectations of their parents and teachers
are very responsible; may assume the role of parent
hold back negative emotions ("good children aren't angry")

Ones as Parents

teach their children responsibility and strong moral values
are consistent and fair
discipline firmly

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

You liked the test? so please RATE it...
but remember! it had only two questions!!! ;-)

You are not completely happy with the result?!
You chose CZ

Would you rather have chosen:

AZ (THREE)

BZ (FIVE)

CX (TWO)

CY (SIX)

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 0% on ABC

You scored higher than 0% on XYZ

Link: The Quick and Painless ENNEAGRAM Test written by felk on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Is Anybody Home?

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 00:56:46 GMT

<7:30 pm>

I'm supposed to be doing homework...but here I am. Updating my journal while listening to Our Lady Peace - Is Anybody Home. It's officially summer in the Philippines...so yea. My mom just talked with my counselor a while ago and she said that he can now fix my fucked up credits so I know what subjects I'll take next year...I signed up for an online course for health...so I wouldn't take it as an extra shit class next year...and I just found out that I failed Spanish and Advanced Algebra I think...I'm not sure...but what the hell anyway.

<7:35>

Yea...I wonder how my life went this way...I could remember when I was in 7th grade...I always thought that I'll be finishing in Poveda...then going to college in Ateneo or UP...but look where I am...in Taravella in Florida for my junior year...trying to finish up my sophomore classes...looking through a half decent college with the shitty grades I've been getting...

<7:40>

I think I've evolved a new way of thinking...it's like I've lost all the feelings I have...It's as if I grew this wall...and I'm serious here...really...it surprised me when I found it out...I think it grows with every rejection I've had...I really don't want to fall anymore...and I think I won't ever...

<7:45>

I just want to grow up...get my own place...get the hell out of here...I'm just too tired of this all...I think I'm just growing old...I feel like an old hag...where are the carefree times?...times when I just used to fuck around with my friends...when I'd think of something crazy and actually make up plans to do it...but I never did...

the harsh realities of life suddenly hit me so bad...

<7:50>

I'm just living everday...I never want to go look at the future and find that I have to live another year being a fucking dependent...I don't want to love because I don't know if anyone will love me back...I don't want to dream...because dreams just don't come true in the end.

I'm sick of everything...

I'm sick of this life.

I'm just so tired now...

<8:00 pm>

my new role model

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 23:33:51 GMT

i wanna be like shane mccutcheon of the L word.

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 02:38:51 GMT

10 FIRSTS
first best friend: Bea Cruz
first screen name: stsca_raww
first pet name: Tonini Bonini
first piercing: one on each ear
first crush: the guy in the movie POWDER
first school: Poveda
first house location: Marikina
first kiss: Joy
first car: none...hopefully before the year ends I have my first car..hehe

9 LASTS
last time you smoked: Philippines! argh!
last food you ate: fresh salmon
last car ride: home from school
last movie you watched: nanny mcphee
last phone call: cassandra and diana
last CD you listened to: KJWAN
last song you listened to: You're Rude(Get Fucked) - Bad Cabbage

8 HAVE-YOU-EVERS
dated a best friend: nope
been arrested: no
been on TV: uhh..I don't think so
eaten sushi: yeah
cheated on your BF/GF: nope
been on a blind date: no
been out of the country: yea
been in love: a couple of times...at the wrong people

7 THINGS YOU ARE WEARING
1. black shorts
2. black shirt
3. black bra
4. black panty
5. earrings
6. pad?...i have my period
7. that's it.

6 THINGS YOU HAVE DONE TODAY
1. made a new lj
2. checked email
3. watched tv
4. took a bath
5. cooked food
6. ate dinner

5 FAVORITE THINGS
1. laptop
2. clothes
3. accessories
4. the mall
5. --------

4 PEOPLE YOU TRUST THE MOST
1. Kitty
2. Ate Angely
3. Katherine
4. Lian

3 THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. get laid
2. travel the world
3. drive a car

2 CHOICES
vanilla or chocolate: vanilla
hugs or kisses: both

1 PERSON YOU WANT TO SEE RIGHT NOW?
Kitty Samaniego.

...coz I have nothing better to do

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 02:16:03 GMT

yourz is "Pay no mind to those who talk behind

your back, it simply mean that you are two

steps ahead" keep it up no one can get

you down

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Fuzzy to the touch

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I love this one.

Toni will have to write:

I will not sign things which someone has affixed the ‘sign here’ sticker to

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You are weed. youre laid back and you like relaxing

with your friends, laughing, and mellowing

out.

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You have Sirens blood: The beauty of a siren comes

in many forms. But yours is by far the most

pure. You are mysterious, clever, kind,

compassionate, beautiful, amazing, wonderful

and so much more. You are the kind of person

that makes this world a better place just by

waking up every morning. Dont let the sins of

others bring you down, you are a beautiful

person both inside and without.

What ancient bloodline do you have?
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\You're a quick death bringer!/
You may have been a role model while alive but you

strike at any moment. You kill people when

you think their life is the fullest it can

be. A snap of your finger and they drop dead.

You feel remorse to those who you kill so you

make sure no one sees; you make sure it's not

painful.....but then again sometimes you

smile with glee thinking how you were

murdered and how it's no fair how other live

while you're dead.

What kind of death bringer are you?
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Your song is "Coma White" by Marilyn

Manson.
You probably have a lot of problems right now and

need a way to get you mind of off those

problems (be it drugs or something else).
Lyrics:
"A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself"

What song fits you best?
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The Raging Panther
You are an angsty person. You view life

sceptically and hate biasness. This could

probably be from experience in your past, or

influence. You believe that this world is

full of misery and that you have been treated

unfairly. You may look tough on the outside,

but you are actually crumbling internally.

Your Quote: "The only thing standing

between me and total happiness is

reality."

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New

Sat, 25 Feb 2006 20:57:36 GMT

I wanted to make another journal, something I made...or rather...I just fixed up a premade one...no guesses on who actually owns this journal. Unless of course you don't know how to read.